i love her but i doubt my future with her.

i didn't have near as much fun as i could have on halloween, in my big bear costume.

i've had perpetual tire-innertube problems.

i'm moving to north los angeles, california, usa, earth, january 5th, 2010

i'm bored. i'm not learning. i'm terrified of this.

i lover her more than anything.

Currently Fever to Tell By Yeah Yeah Yeahs modern romance see related

I'm working again. Its a huge french restaraunt, its fun i guess but i'm wanting to venture into pastry arts, breads and candies. the owner said he might have somewhere else for me to work where i could focus more on that. I still really want to move to france.

life is good. I'm just working and hanging out with the anarchist/anti-civilization/freight train jumpers kids. they scare me.

I really like this girl.

I received a $107 ticket for running a red light the kicker is i was on my bike. I couldn't believe it was happening! and of course it had to take 6 fucking cops to give a bicyclist a ticket at 11pm on a saturday night downtown while you have underage kids taking shots of hawkeye WHILE "scooping the loop"

I'm still furious.

On a brighter note i was checking out a new bike shop today and i met the owner curtis. Tonight we're going to sit down, get some ideas flowing and start up a bicycle courier service. Being a bicycle courier has been on my mental list of life goals for quite some time. I'm thrilled.

I'm full of anxiety.

I had a disagreement today while in the car with my dad. It was about the Iowa state fairs decision to not include the carved butter sculpture of michael jackson. There reason was because of his "lifestyle choices" and my father agreed but i was outraged. normally this kind of thing would roll off of my back because i'm very use to the way my dad thinks and thats my general disposition but i guess i'm just under too much stress.

I fucking hate conservative talk radio and the consequential discussions i have with my parents regarding issues i really don't give a shit about. i get far too worked up to the point where i won't talk to anyone for hours. it isn't worth it.

i would like to get drunk or high, its been a long time since i have and that alone makes me happy.

i need some fucking sunshine. the weather always gets me down.